My Intention

My intention for this blog is to act as a journal, sounding board, therapist, and just a place for me to track my life as it is.  Life is always changing, from one day to the next, and for me I feel I loose track of where I’ve been- physically and mentally.  I want to remember.  I want to remember the pain, the happiness, and the changes.  I want to see my growth as a source of pride- that I am living this life- probably making mistakes, but definitely learning along the way.  This last 6 months was one continual band-aid being ripped from the most sensitive and hairy of places.  (Gross?). But years were building up to this and everything just unraveled into a new state of being.  I hope they were all for a reason.  I believe they were.  Clarity is a word I overuse.  But I don’t naturally have a lot of it.  My emotions live like a dense fog within my mind, blocking clarity as if it were the sun.  I can’t help it.  They exist inside me, from sadness, to inspiration, to overwhelm, to gratefulness, to disappointment.  What’s a Kendall to do?  It makes her who she is.  Will writing help to sort my emotions- in a Konmari kinda way- to keep those that bring me joy and to thank the others for the awareness they have brought and then graciously discard them?  I don’t want to wait for life anymore,  that’s not my story.  This is.